Shitty day

Dear friends
I'm writing this as I want you to know how bad I am to think that one fine day I will leave you without ask forgiveness from you.
I admit I did lots of things that hurt your feeling and maybe that's the reasons you keep a distance between us.
Well as for your acknowledgement I do hurt too. As I can't keep my mind peace.
It's bother me a lot.

I did lose lots of people too and keep trying to do my best to keep the rest I just knew well too.
I did change my behaviour and admitted it's not so easy as I knew I'm kinda changed cuz others sake not for myself and it keep bothers me too.

Outspoken is a dangerous attitude that will drag me down and that's the habit I push off the wall and just see it keep leaving me too.. Its really hard to see its leaving . 😢😟

Well to make others pleased it's not so easy as hell yeah I need to sacrifice a few things and keep sacrificing for those who doesn't even bother bout other and especially me too. 😥

Nowadays I keep forgetting few things and I knew I'm trying to keep the things in right track so no one discover my faulty but I can't. Oh I wish I'm not do it again. What I'm going to do if they knew I'm not capable to cope few multiple job. 😵😱

Hope I will get well soon. I need to be more strong and healthy too. There's a lots lot things I have to do. Bunch of it still pending and friends just want to let you know I will find you before I go.

I will even it's the last thing that I'm capable to do.

Take care. 

Happy belated birthday to me

There's nothing I can express myself rather than be grateful for these 31years old I've been lives and be here. 🐣🐤🐔.  K thanks. Haha 😅

Life must go on.

Assalamualaikum
Aku dah lama tak menaip kat sini. Its been more than a year. Well exactly four years actually.  Aku tak ingat password and mostly sebab aku terlalu sibuk dengan dunia.
Well aku tak tahu nak updated apa but then, Banyak hal yang jadi dan aku dah lepaskan banyak benda juga.

As usual aku deactivate akaun social media and just live with apa yang ada.

For updated too aku dah berhijrah tempat keje and maybe for the incoming year ahead aku akan tinggalkan KL juga. As I'm working in here and temporarily stay here too..

For the people who I left few weeks ago. Please accept it as karma. Aku bukan sengaja Tinggalkan korang. Tapi aku penat jadi manusia yang sempurna dimata korang tapi aku tak sempurna dihati aku sendiri.

Thank you for everything
Wish me all the best too

Wassalam  

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